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So I had a bit of a really awful emotional episode a few weeks ago. My anxiety got the better of me, and my belly was really clenched up and I was pretty much overcome with freakouts. Work seemed impossible, the world seemed doomed and hardly worth saving anyway, all noises were a billion needles in my soul. I hated myself more than anything. My laziness, my seemingly deteriorating body, my inability to make progress on meaningful things, in terms of personal projects, or in academia, or in my career...

So... yeah! Good times.

But! I got a therapist. Some counseling comes with work health care (super fortunate), and this has helped immensely. I really like my counselor a lot, and she's giving me really great simple advice, and I've felt way better. The advice is just like "go running more!" and "get a mindfulness practice; have you tried the Headspace app?" -- "read this self-help book!" ... just taking that step of getting some professional help was huge. It made me feel way more in control of my brain. So that's huge. I've felt much, much better since then.

Other things! Alec came through for a work trip, and we got to hang out a bunch! That was really nice. We went running and talked about life and work and language and video games, as we're likely to do.

And for the long weekend, Martin has been here for most of it! So wonderful to get to hang out with him :D We went for long walks, we baked (banana bread and vegan meringues!), and we tried out OCTODAD: DADLIEST CATCH. I heartily recommend this game. I also heartily recommend hanging out with Martin, when he's in the country.

Also we hung out with Tim and his son Ezra! They're pretty great. Ezra's getting lanky. And eloquent. He's almost five.

Almost baby time. We're getting close. I'll work one or maybe two more weeks, then just take vacation until we have child in hand <3 Though it could be any day now.

Date: 2017-07-09 04:23 am (UTC)
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Hey there! Glad you're doing better.

Are you going to ACL or EMNLP this year? It'd be fun to see you again and have lunch or something. (Totally understand, though, if conference plans are a no-go this year due to impending baby. My sisters just each had one, and I'm not sure that I'd be making any out-of-country plans if I were them.)

Date: 2017-07-10 02:23 am (UTC)
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Will do! It's actually reasonably likely that'll happen at some point. Alan goes to San Francisco periodically for work, and he's always asking me to come too. With an Amazon office nearby, it'd actually be doable :-)

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