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Alex R ([personal profile] alexr_rwx) wrote2004-09-25 08:18 pm

more questions and answers

Do you ever feel like this?

The question is:
I am hungry, but I can't find anybody to eat with me. I am alone, and people I'd like to be hanging out with are busy behind closed doors, getting sweet lovin', or out with interesting people doing fun things in the real world. I would like to be getting sweet lovin', but I don't even know how to begin meeting people, and the people it would be easy to meet, categorically, are at best uninteresting and at worst mind-numbing and inane. I feel like I don't really belong anywhere; where I once had a group of folks to be around, they've dispersed. Not only do I have no feeling of the divine (did I ever?), which is desolate and lonely in and of itself, I feel guilty and deceptive, even being in a church, and I've never really felt at home there anyway -- it's full of people I had trouble relating to; I often wonder about the sincerity (or at least the level of self-examination) of those who proclaim a faith. In my own country, I feel like an alien, and when I'm abroad, I'm a tourist. There is no particular culture to which I pertain; other geeks even make me uncomfortable.

The answer is:
Be more proactive about it. Go find people. Join a club. Do something interesting that's not sitting in your room writing whiney livejournal entries. Pay more attention to your own mind, and don't let yourself be stupid -- watch for the tendency to despair. There are people out there; either go be with them, else do more work, or maybe get more exercise. Further, "real people" actually aren't uninteresting -- just find out what it is about them that's cool.

Just bloody well do something. Deep down inside, the answer to everything is "So, what are you going to do about it?"

[identity profile] reality-calls.livejournal.com 2004-09-26 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
   You can't just go and pick up religion at the QuikTrip...

What, you're not familiar with the recent cooperation between the major global retail outlets and Christian sects to make religion a commercially available item?

The truly sad part is, I'm not sure whether I meant that jokingly or not...


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