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May. 2nd, 2003 03:34 amI'm likely going to be home within the next 24 hours. Home! I'm going ... home!
If it's not coming through sufficiently, this is an extraordinarily happy thought. I'm ... going ... home!! I'm not even quite sure why this has suddenly dawned on me, but it has. I'm packing up the room. It's mostly all packed up, or in little piles on the floor. elrond (my desktop box) is still all put together, but everything else is broken down, stuck in bags and boxes, ready to go.
yo mismo: I'm feeling remarkably good :) It feels like I'm Done...
Esther: Wow, awesome!!
yo mismo: *laughs* ... it's ironic, because I'm not...
yo mismo: ... but I think my mind and body are already in vacation mode, which probably won't be the healthiest thing for my GPA... but...
yo mismo: eh :)
Combinatorics tomorrow is likely not going to be terribly pretty, but this somehow fails to come across as important. I haven't felt terribly motivated to work on this much, which really isn't a good thing. I'm torn between sort of a resignation ("eh -- the test is going to be a disaster... but why worry about that? If I have to take combinatorics again, so be it. Summer's coming!") and a sort of hope ("D is for done. I really don't need to score that many points... just got to make myself sit down, look at this stuff, get a good chunk of it, and I'm set. This is 40% of the class, tomorrow...") ...
Today I got up, took my Practicum test, had breakfast, went to sleep for a long while (my body's already started trying to go into "recover from the ill-treatment that was this semester" mode), woke up... and haven't been doing nearly as much combo as I should be doing. Marty and myself worked some problems for a bit... but I've been considering reliving my childhood by building another machine, putting FreeDOS on it, and installing all the old DOS games I can find. All this dad-blammed multiple-levels-of-abstraction and OS-provides-apis-to-the-hardware and system-runs-more-than-one-process-at-once stuff... what we really need is direct hardware access and an OS that doesn't do anything except load the programs into memory and let them go.
Looking at all the funky books I had on my bookshelf, before I packed them up... I realized how little of them I've read. The textbooks for S&N this year are really fascinating... but I've only done a tiny fraction of them. I've got Programming Perl, Stroustrup, Advanced Unix Programming, a book on LISP... all sorts of great geeky stuff that I've only barely dipped into. This summer, I think I should pick up at least two more languages (get good at C++ and become a LISP beast) and get an interesting project or three done outside of classwork for that Linux course...
That, and I'm going to get strong again, and Really Fast... because I'm going home to Sunny, Sunny Florida, where all my weariness will fall away like droplets of sweat... all the accumulated crap and cruft in my body will be burned away by the healing heat, and I'll fix my neurosises, and I'll spend my mornings in the woods, running as far and as fast as I like, maybe sometimes without shoes... and I'll go and hack at FSU in the afternoons... and I'll work out and lift weights (maybe with my father, or maybe at FSU or at the gym near my house), and I'll hang out with my family and my Tallahassee people, and it'll all feel Really Good.
... and on Sunday, I'm going to visit Esther :) Yay!
... but first, I should sleep, and fit as much combinatorial mathematics into my head as I can, and then stick everything in my car and drive home.
If it's not coming through sufficiently, this is an extraordinarily happy thought. I'm ... going ... home!! I'm not even quite sure why this has suddenly dawned on me, but it has. I'm packing up the room. It's mostly all packed up, or in little piles on the floor. elrond (my desktop box) is still all put together, but everything else is broken down, stuck in bags and boxes, ready to go.
yo mismo: I'm feeling remarkably good :) It feels like I'm Done...
Esther: Wow, awesome!!
yo mismo: *laughs* ... it's ironic, because I'm not...
yo mismo: ... but I think my mind and body are already in vacation mode, which probably won't be the healthiest thing for my GPA... but...
yo mismo: eh :)
Combinatorics tomorrow is likely not going to be terribly pretty, but this somehow fails to come across as important. I haven't felt terribly motivated to work on this much, which really isn't a good thing. I'm torn between sort of a resignation ("eh -- the test is going to be a disaster... but why worry about that? If I have to take combinatorics again, so be it. Summer's coming!") and a sort of hope ("D is for done. I really don't need to score that many points... just got to make myself sit down, look at this stuff, get a good chunk of it, and I'm set. This is 40% of the class, tomorrow...") ...
Today I got up, took my Practicum test, had breakfast, went to sleep for a long while (my body's already started trying to go into "recover from the ill-treatment that was this semester" mode), woke up... and haven't been doing nearly as much combo as I should be doing. Marty and myself worked some problems for a bit... but I've been considering reliving my childhood by building another machine, putting FreeDOS on it, and installing all the old DOS games I can find. All this dad-blammed multiple-levels-of-abstraction and OS-provides-apis-to-the-hardware and system-runs-more-than-one-process-at-once stuff... what we really need is direct hardware access and an OS that doesn't do anything except load the programs into memory and let them go.
Looking at all the funky books I had on my bookshelf, before I packed them up... I realized how little of them I've read. The textbooks for S&N this year are really fascinating... but I've only done a tiny fraction of them. I've got Programming Perl, Stroustrup, Advanced Unix Programming, a book on LISP... all sorts of great geeky stuff that I've only barely dipped into. This summer, I think I should pick up at least two more languages (get good at C++ and become a LISP beast) and get an interesting project or three done outside of classwork for that Linux course...
That, and I'm going to get strong again, and Really Fast... because I'm going home to Sunny, Sunny Florida, where all my weariness will fall away like droplets of sweat... all the accumulated crap and cruft in my body will be burned away by the healing heat, and I'll fix my neurosises, and I'll spend my mornings in the woods, running as far and as fast as I like, maybe sometimes without shoes... and I'll go and hack at FSU in the afternoons... and I'll work out and lift weights (maybe with my father, or maybe at FSU or at the gym near my house), and I'll hang out with my family and my Tallahassee people, and it'll all feel Really Good.
... and on Sunday, I'm going to visit Esther :) Yay!
... but first, I should sleep, and fit as much combinatorial mathematics into my head as I can, and then stick everything in my car and drive home.
