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Feb. 23rd, 2003 11:37 amToday's better. Can't really say that yesterday was a bad day. There really aren't bad days, just sometimes one doesn't feel good during a particular day...
Anyway, yesterday, I did some sanity-beneficial sorts of things, like speaking with (in chronological order) my roommate Corey (who told me to go running, which I did), God (who gave me this really excellent metaphor about life and wind and spit), my mother, and Esther. It's good to have a support network like that... I'm pretty well convinced that left to my own devices and stress, I'd completely lose it. Other people have to step in every so often and keep me straight/focused/grounded... gotta remember that I really don't have any problems at all, save the fact that I keep creating problems for myself. All my little trials and tribulations are essentially non-issues, and what's more, they're not unique... so it's just a matter of remembering to enjoy and occasionally pulling my head up out of my own little mire of self-importance.
I felt a lot better. I worked on stuff. Marty and myself sat down and designed our program for this week. We're going to demolish this assignment -- Marty's a beast. As soon as we were done designing, he went and started knocking out code. We've got our CVS repository all set up, the first few tasks delegated, a pretty good general idea of the design and how everything else is going to get done, and 145 hours until the due date.
*laughs* So on one end, I'm saying that my own little issues aren't important at all, and on the other, I'm getting all excited and telling you about the CS2335 project for the week...
I spoke with Esther last night, amid frequent cellphone disconnections on her end... it sounds like she's having a really excellent time at her weekend IV retreat. She's the most wonderful person, but sometimes it's difficult to talk to her. She's challenging, deep-thinking, and searching, is the thing. Sometimes that's hard to deal with. I generally agree with what she's saying (in terms of truth conditions), but sometimes the language she uses to get the idea across presents itself like there's a different... spin? charge? feeling? ... to it. She's got this amazing energy when she gets excited, particularly when it's about God, and that's both beautiful and threatening. Maybe I just have a simplistic view on things. Maybe I wasn't doing the best job of switching from code-mode to theology-mode. Just don't know how to respond, or what to say, sometimes...
I'll write to Lloyd today. I'm going to actually, physically, mail him a letter. Strange.
So for today: parse level files, do the Squeak meeting, finish up CS2200, run, love, live, write to Lloyd. Maybe eat something.
Anyway, yesterday, I did some sanity-beneficial sorts of things, like speaking with (in chronological order) my roommate Corey (who told me to go running, which I did), God (who gave me this really excellent metaphor about life and wind and spit), my mother, and Esther. It's good to have a support network like that... I'm pretty well convinced that left to my own devices and stress, I'd completely lose it. Other people have to step in every so often and keep me straight/focused/grounded... gotta remember that I really don't have any problems at all, save the fact that I keep creating problems for myself. All my little trials and tribulations are essentially non-issues, and what's more, they're not unique... so it's just a matter of remembering to enjoy and occasionally pulling my head up out of my own little mire of self-importance.
I felt a lot better. I worked on stuff. Marty and myself sat down and designed our program for this week. We're going to demolish this assignment -- Marty's a beast. As soon as we were done designing, he went and started knocking out code. We've got our CVS repository all set up, the first few tasks delegated, a pretty good general idea of the design and how everything else is going to get done, and 145 hours until the due date.
*laughs* So on one end, I'm saying that my own little issues aren't important at all, and on the other, I'm getting all excited and telling you about the CS2335 project for the week...
I spoke with Esther last night, amid frequent cellphone disconnections on her end... it sounds like she's having a really excellent time at her weekend IV retreat. She's the most wonderful person, but sometimes it's difficult to talk to her. She's challenging, deep-thinking, and searching, is the thing. Sometimes that's hard to deal with. I generally agree with what she's saying (in terms of truth conditions), but sometimes the language she uses to get the idea across presents itself like there's a different... spin? charge? feeling? ... to it. She's got this amazing energy when she gets excited, particularly when it's about God, and that's both beautiful and threatening. Maybe I just have a simplistic view on things. Maybe I wasn't doing the best job of switching from code-mode to theology-mode. Just don't know how to respond, or what to say, sometimes...
I'll write to Lloyd today. I'm going to actually, physically, mail him a letter. Strange.
So for today: parse level files, do the Squeak meeting, finish up CS2200, run, love, live, write to Lloyd. Maybe eat something.
