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I had a small freakout this afternoon, but I think I'm over it.
My grandmother is very sick and probably won't be around much longer. I'm going to see her tomorrow morning. Word is that she seems to have come to terms with the situation. My father and sister (and my father's siblings) are visiting with her right now. Natalie seems to be handling well, at least. Mortality's been on my mind. Apparently hospice people have brochures about dying that they hand out.
I think I don't want to work on my masters project anymore -- I have this immense inertia when it comes to getting around to doing stuff on it, and I dread having my research group call or email me... this is not a healthy sign. Also, somebody from my old group was emailing me frantically today, trying to install something OMG EMERGENCY CRUCIAL on the server, which they haven't found anybody knowledgeable to admin for them...
It's as if graduation hasn't taken yet. There are a million things I want to learn and do -- just bought a giant stack of books on maths and programmering -- but I have these looming obligations that I keep on agreeing to? Growing up involves saying "no". There's only so much time, and I need to take control of it.
Teaching is fairly rewarding, at least. And Mountain View soon.
Martin has an interview with the Goog on Tuesday, in case you didn't hear it from him :)
Link: there aren't that many situations where the punchline is a definition of "metaphysics". But here: A Non-Philosopher's Guide to Philosophical Terms. Thank you, David Chalmers.
My grandmother is very sick and probably won't be around much longer. I'm going to see her tomorrow morning. Word is that she seems to have come to terms with the situation. My father and sister (and my father's siblings) are visiting with her right now. Natalie seems to be handling well, at least. Mortality's been on my mind. Apparently hospice people have brochures about dying that they hand out.
I think I don't want to work on my masters project anymore -- I have this immense inertia when it comes to getting around to doing stuff on it, and I dread having my research group call or email me... this is not a healthy sign. Also, somebody from my old group was emailing me frantically today, trying to install something OMG EMERGENCY CRUCIAL on the server, which they haven't found anybody knowledgeable to admin for them...
It's as if graduation hasn't taken yet. There are a million things I want to learn and do -- just bought a giant stack of books on maths and programmering -- but I have these looming obligations that I keep on agreeing to? Growing up involves saying "no". There's only so much time, and I need to take control of it.
Teaching is fairly rewarding, at least. And Mountain View soon.
Martin has an interview with the Goog on Tuesday, in case you didn't hear it from him :)
Link: there aren't that many situations where the punchline is a definition of "metaphysics". But here: A Non-Philosopher's Guide to Philosophical Terms. Thank you, David Chalmers.
